When I was in my 20s, I did have a romantic view of aging. I think I saw a movie where Isadora Duncan, you know, was wearing these scarves that eventually killed her, and she was old, but she was living. And I thought, "That's how I'm gonna age."
That was early though, and then you get a little older. And then you forget that you're gonna age, so then it surprises you when it gets there.
You realize nobody ever talks to you about that transition time. They talk to you about your puberty—they get you ready for that. They get you ready, you know. There's a lot of advice. But this transition into the wisdom age—there wasn't that mechanism to inform each other about what that feels like, and how to maneuver through it, and how to feel good about it.
So I think I'm in a time where I feel very lucky to be in this time at this age.
I'm ecstatic about it actually. It's been a long road, but I'm finding a place where I get to choose. Absolutely you find yourself not wanting to spend energy where it's doing no good.
I mean the process started probably when I was 50. I said patience is not a virtue anymore. It starting revving up back then. Just stop stopping yourself. Stop letting the world stop you. Stop not knowing what it is you want. Start choosing and going for it.
I picked my husband. Mm-hmm. I was 51, I finally...I realized that I had never been the chooser, I'd always allowed the relationships to present themselves to me as possibilities. But at 51, I bit the bullet and I said, "That's what I want." And I went for it. And he was as surprised as I was. And it was really great. It was so surprising to both of us. And it was really, really perfect.
I had never been married before. I had imagined that marriage would come to me, that something would present itself that was undeniable. And you know what, it just never happened. I was like, "What? What's going wrong here?"
I wasn't chasing marriage. I was chasing things that I enjoy, pursuits, experiences. Did not think that I needed marriage. Didn't pursue it. And loving a whole community, a whole group of friends, a whole tribe has given me a wonderful life experience. I do have a loving family, and then I decided that's what I want.
He was amazed. He was like, "How could someone like you like me?" And I was amazed that he didn't have a line of women waiting to get a hold of that. And we were just both, I think, underachievers in the romance department until we had a three month long-distance courtship. So romantic. Phone calls, emails, video calls, and written letters. Wow, written letters.
A friend of mine at my birthday party said, "You don't get to give advice in the Native American traditions until you're 60." Who knew? I get to give advice.
0:03 Just hit the big one, 60 0:09 Romantic view of aging 0:36 Nobody talks about this age 1:16 Ecstatic to be this age 1:39 Patience is not a virtue 2:05 I picked my husband at 51 2:44 Never been married before 3:08 Wasn’t chasing marriage 4:08 Our three-month courtship 4:30 I get to give advice