Riti Sachdeva, 48. Nothing was good enough back then.
I was too big, or this wasn't small enough, or that part wasn't big enough, was never really satisfied with myself, always comparing myself to other people, just not good enough.
I wasn't in my own body in my 20s. I wasn't aware. I wasn't aware of my body as this, kind of, moving entity in space.
It was just, sort of, the outsides that I was aware of in my 20s. I'm much more in touch with my body now than I was then. Back then, it was just, like, "How do I look? How do I look?" But now, it's a much deeper intuitive process.
I actually have a relationship with my body now. Back then, it was just this thing that I was trying to control.
I think it was more in my mid or late 30s that that shifted. On the inside, I was feeling quite happy with the things that I was doing in my life: writing and acting, having a great community of people around me and knowing how to take care of myself.
So, I think it was around that point that I felt like, "No, everything is good. I just need to learn how to maintain this sense of..."
I guess it was a sense of dignity. I came to it pretty late as a dancer.
I think I started dancing flamenco when I was about 29, 30 years old. And the amazing thing about flamenco is that you still see flamenco dancers dance well into their 50s.
In fact, one of my early teachers said that for about 30 years you're just learning, and then after 30 years then you're a flamenco dancer.
And my teacher right now, she is my age, maybe a year older.
I think for me, as I age, it's a wonderful practice. And there's something about the grounded earthiness that comes with aging that really is important in the artistic expression in flamenco.
So, I was unsure because I don't really wear much makeup at all. And I don't like the feeling of feeling covered up and feeling like there's something sitting on my skin.
But all of the products were really light and, when I looked in the mirror, I didn't see it as being covered up, but it was, kind of, a nice pop to what's already happening in my face, so a little extra shimmer or a little extra glow.
I used the moisturizer and I found that it wasn't very greasy at all, which was great, and it has no scent which is...I prefer not to use things with a lot of scent.
But it did feel like my skin just felt nice and firm and soft. So I really enjoyed the moisturizer. When I put the lip blush on my lips, I didn't know if it would cover it, if it would be thick and matte-y, but it was a really just a nice, kind of, tint.
Yeah, I actually really enjoyed using the products. And I also used the mask. I could feel that, sort of, tightening process as I kept it on.
I think I had it on for about 20 minutes and my face felt really quite refreshed. And it did look like it did some exfoliating. So, yeah, I really enjoyed the products.
I don't feel old. And when I say old, I mean, I don't feel like someone whose life is folding.
I feel like someone whose life is expanding. The fact that my hair is graying just seems, like, just part of the changes that are happening. And the changes are wonderful.
0:10 Never being satisfied 0:40 My body in my 20's 1:07 When Riti's mindset shifted 1:50 Discovering dance 2:20 Being grounded 2:50 Trying BOOM! for the first time 3:41 BOOM! Color 3:54 BOOM! Mask 4:15 I don't feel old 4:40 The changes are wonderful!